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Let me tell you a story…
You walk in those doors not knowing what comes your way. You might feel lost and scared at first but it takes a couple of minutes to break in to the surrounding of a building you’ll be stuck in for a good part of your life. You go to class, you meet your teachers, you meet new friends; you’ll get reunited with old friends who you thought you wouldn’t see after middle school. You gain self-confidence through participation of different activities: clubs, sports, talent shows, etc., you lose off that shell that’s been holding you back in the beginning. High school is the time where everything happens. And I mean EVERYTHING! It’s the place where you gain your “coolness” and lose it when you leave the place. It’s the place where you have no control of the people you gain and lose along the way. The place where your future is to be written and your life is to be carved. But nothing really lasts forever in high school; if you’re given a plethora of attention then, you lose all the attention now that you’re out of that “place of changes.” But if you just hold on to that moment, maybe you’ll gain it back someday… When everyone you know from there leave and rejoin you in the real world.
I have a lot more things to say, but I have no more time. This may not be the best post, but try not to get lost!

And I can’t fight this feeling anymore…

It’s not love or anything it’s just….. Unexplainable! I really don’t get all the feelings that I’m getting in my body right now. WE ONLY SEE EACH OTHER TWICE A WEEK but it seems like we NEVER see each other at all! I don’t get it… Maybe we should hangout more than just see each other twice a week? I really don’t get this right now. I feel like I’m being punished for not being “in love” enough!! UGH! But I mean… You have other priorities and I have my own priorities at the moment so we can’t really do anything about that!

…oh well… I guess I just have to make the best out of the two days that we see and talk to each other…because I enjoy those times! We (all) keep each other company in times we have those boring days!

…Is this the right feeling right now… I’m CRUSHED! D’:

So just because you don’t go to school doesn’t mean you’re not smart…

My life now is not as easy then where money was handed down to me because I was “loved.” Now I have to dig for my own money not because I can’t ask my parents for money anymore but because they have a lot more things to pay now and I have my own job. But still, I never got the things I want! A lot of kids out there even at a young age, “Mommy I want this! Daddy I want that!” And they get it! When I was a kid… I never knew what it was like to get what I wanted and I still don’t know how it feels up until now. Middle school students and/or high school students have better things than what I have… Some have cars, nice ass expensive shoes, expensive ass headphones and a good house and not an apartment! But you know what? Am I jealous? NO! No I’m not… Because of there is one thing I learned growing up and being this religious kid who goes to church… That is to NEVER be jealous of what others have. Because what they have and how they live is not something that’ll help me in the long run. Money might be everything to a lot of people or I should just say that money is what runs this world and in today’s society… No one can function without money. But let me ask you this one question… If all of us go to church and we perceive ourselves as religiously involved, is money more important than faith…?

Something is always holding me back from expressing my feelings towards something. Or even as simple as telling someone I truly love them! Like my parents…
But most importantly, something I know I’ve been wanting for the longest time… XXXXXX !! Don’t worry it’s nothing bad… Just something I really need to have before the end of the world which by the way is COMING SOON! #dayofjudgment
I have to do what’s right no matter what the consequences will be!
No guts no glory they say…
…time to step up my game and get it…